| | Honestly...I don't know what more I can do.
The more I give the less I receive, I mean, not fighting is cool and all...but I'm sick of struggling to keep my thoughts in my mouth if I'm still not getting any romance, any effort, any anything. I'm sick of giving and giving and getting less and less.
He doesn't ask me to get him drinks or help him out...but I do it. I guess I have a lot of selfish reasoning behind doing shit...I really want that sweet boyfriend that I thought I signed up for two years ago. But I also do it because I care about him and if the roles were reversed I would want the same thing.
I have all of those stupid outfits I bought to wear for him that I never wear because he's never into me...
I have been waiting MONTHS for my Vday gift and I'm finally on the road to accepting that I'm never getting a fucking thing.
Why the fuck do I try? Why the fuck am I still here?
Sometimes I just want to sell everything I have and just vamoose.
I'm just really done...with everything...
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| | Posted 4/19/2009 2:44 PM - 3 Views - 0 eProps - 0 comments
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